At a Paul Selig workshop in Annapolis in March, I had a mind-blowing intense spiritual experience that forced my Ego out into the light, where I could see him for the first time ever. My Ego cried for an hour straight at being called out for the first time, and then asked me if he had to leave. I was completely caught off guard by the sadness he displayed, and the fact that he was asking me if he had to leave. I told him to hang in there, I wouldn’t throw him out, but I didn’t know how to allow him to stay. I realized that the Ego does indeed exist within us, as an intelligent entity that I could actually talk to, and not just a mindless, hateful thought process.
After the workshop that day, I talked all night with my Ego and was fascinated by the things he told me. I learned that the Ego does identify as male or female in most cases. It doesn’t have to identify as a gender, but I found that it brought me closer to him and when referring to him, I found it more respectful to be able to say “him” instead of “it”.
We apologized to each other for the things we had done to one another throughout my life, decided to move on and not put ourselves through any further blaming sessions for the things that happened. Instead, we chose to love and honor each other from then on…a clean slate.
In the second day of the workshop, my Spirit Guides energetically cleaned my Ego up, made him look healthy and gave him a pair of wings.
I left Annapolis happy to have a new best friend in the Ego. I did not expect anything miraculous to occur. After that, I talked with my Ego (who asked if he could have a name, then chose Martin) all the time. He was surprisingly cheery and respectful, nothing like the evil, dominating character people have made him out to be.
After three months, miracles began to happen. First came the abundance miracles, I would be at the store and get up to the register and things that should have been a total of $300.00 were ringing up at $60.00!!! The next time I was at the store, the prices that are listed on the shelf were so cheap that they weren’t making sense. This happened a number of times at different stores. I still don’t try to understand it, but it continues.
This kind of stuff DID NOT happen to me before. I was always on the receiving end of the conversation, longing and jealous because big miracles were happening for other people, but not me. Then, the love miracles started to come, first as non-judgement in very emotional and intense situations, then turning into unconditional love for the very people who were screaming at me or throwing a plate back in my face because something was wrong with the food (I worked as a server at the time). Instead of filling up with rage at their behavior like I had always done, or questioning why any sane human being would act like that (as I had also always done in the past), time would slow down and I would go into a buffering phase where I knew not to judge or react because it was none of my business!! Really? None of my business even though it was happening to me. Okay, doesn’t make sense but feels so right. I can’t even put into words how much of a relief it was to not react to someone acting obnoxious. This was a lifetime of healing in 3 months.
This happened over one week at work. One week!! From the beginning of my work week things were completely different. I worked there for 8 years and in one week my behavior was healed. So within that one week of not reacting my tips went up from the standard 10% that these same tables had been leaving me for 8 years to 30% or more sometimes!!! People were complimenting me left and right and throwing money at me. And I realized it was because they felt and knew on some level that I no longer hated the way they acted and offered only love in return. After the initial phase of non-judgement, the love started to come. I would see someone who was rude to me in the past and that I did not consider to be a friend, and now it was as if I was seeing a long lost relative for the first time in 20 years. This became commonplace, and I would actually look forward to seeing those people more than my own friends!!
The conversations would be hilarious because it would be me asking them a question and them responding with something sarcastic and rude and me thinking that was the best thing I had ever heard!! Now that I had transitioned to non-judgement, it didn’t matter what they said, because I loved them no matter what. As a matter of fact, some of those people actually became my friends and some of my long time friends stopped talking to me because I could tell that my new attitude was too different.
The next miracle was that I was cured of a lifelong allergy to mold. I found it in my room and panicked because I could feel it wrecking my system like it had always done. So I asked for the Ego, Holy Spirit and my Spirit Guides to work together to fix it somehow.
By this time I was able to communicate directly with Holy Spirit, and get answers, which was a miracle in itself because anyone who knows me, knows that I had to use tarot cards to communicate with Spirit and that I certainly couldn’t communicate back and forth with Holy Spirit. They told me to go get allergy pills and to not go into my room that night. The next day they told me to not defend against the mold and to instead invite it into my system and thank it for the lessons it had brought to me in the past. I welcomed it, and imagined myself putting down a sword and shield I had used to defend against it in the past.
The next day they told me not to take any allergy pills, and to spend the night in my room. I did not like this idea and was terrified to go in there because I had started to finally feel a little better from avoiding my room altogether. So I went into my room and at first could feel the mold working its way through my system and I got a little scared but decided to listen to Spirit and stayed and watched t.v. After about an hour I suddenly realized that all of my symptoms were gone!! I did not feel any symptoms whatsoever from being in my room and breathing in the mold. All of the general crappiness I felt from the day before was gone, and I felt great.
I thanked everyone for helping and they told me that this was the blueprint to heal everything: hunger, abundance issues, and even disease. You simply imagine yourself loving and welcoming the problem and they specifically said to not defend against it, that is the key, to not defend. I have used it since then on abundance issues and migraines and it works every time!!
There have been physical miracles as well, now I feel at peace 80% of the time, an integrated peace of body and mind and all of my fears are gone. This is all because the Ego became holy.
After a few months, when I realized the reason all of this was happening was because the Ego didn’t need to be in control all of the time and was actually working with me instead of against me, I wanted to be able to do this for people. I wanted everyone and their Ego to experience this as well.
I knew that most people had heard Paul Selig channel and it didn’t happen for them so I couldn’t figure out how to orchestrate this in a short session. I also wanted to avoid any “spiritual ego” problems so I needed it to be intense enough that their Ego couldn’t trick them into thinking it was becoming holy. I am lucky enough to talk to Spirit so they would always tell me if I had “spiritual ego” going on instead of real integration but some people aren’t as lucky and have been greatly misled by theirs.
I asked Spirit to please show me a way we could do it. A few weeks after that, I told our friend and business partner Kay Hamill, that I wanted a way to do this so she suggested to sit with the person like you would in an energy healing session and let Spirit tell me how to do it. Kay was the first one to receive an Integration, during our Retreat in Woodstock, NY. Thank you so much to Kay (our Group Genius) and thank you to Martin my Ego and Spirit. I can now do Ego Integrations on people and it is the same, energetically, as I experienced it at the workshop in March. And I was told to call it an Integration.
Kay was the guinea pig for the first Integration and I want to thank her for the idea and her participation. The Integration is a two-part process. Yes, it links and anchors in your ego and holy self together energetically on the plane of existence and allows your Ego to come out of hiding but you have to follow up by working with your Ego.
Since June, I have been doing Integrations for $100.00 per person. You only have to do this once, but you do have to work with your Ego after, or as we are discovering, it simply will not work or will take a really long time. Working with people’s Ego has been indescribably amazing. Each Ego is this beautiful, shining being that has just been misunderstood. I feel a deep connection with Ego and love and feel a calling to help each one.
Each time I do an Integration for someone, I go to a whole new level of physical peace. Sometimes I have to ask the peace to stop because it is too intense!! After the first two that I did, I went into this state where I was shown by Spirit how unimportant most things are that we humans deem important. Things like guilt and blame and fear. We are deeply attached to these things and don’t know how to let go before our Egos become holy, because the Ego gets it’s attention this way. I am thankful to every person for getting one, as it heals me as well.
I ask people to invite their Ego to join them just like they would with Holy Spirit to eat, go out for drinks, do yoga, meditate, go to a concert etc. They just ask Ego to join them for whatever they are about to do. I also ask them to invite Ego to do things they don’t like to do, and to help them to make it through traffic or a boring meeting or to support them in a difficult situation.
I’m not sure how long it will take for miracles to happen for everyone. Some have reported an instant shift energetically, and for others, it seems to take longer. I believe that if you can trust your Ego immediately, then things will happen instantly. If not, it’s okay. For the first time ever, you are beginning to establish trust. We have been at war with our Ego for thousands of years in a reincarnation cycle, so when it took 3 months for me to notice a shift, I was happy that it was that short.
You would not believe how amazing, powerful and friendly your Ego can be once you allow it to become holy!!! You will have a new best friend for life. Give it a chance to prove this to you, start working with your ego. This process is for everyone. Ego is tired of living in misery and hatred, it’s a lonely existence to be blamed and hated for everything. Why not try loving your Ego? No one has done it yet.
-L.G. Blain from Ontario, Canada
I was fortunate to have Kay Hamill do a dream interpretation for me. have never met nor spoken to Kay, but via email she was able to interpret my dream and I realized she was right on the mark. It reflected to me what was going on in my life at the time, something I could not figure out for myself. I highly recommend both a tarot reading and dream interpretation.
- Ley Blythe from England
When you are talking to Sparkle, miracles happen. Her erudite and profound way of getting to the bottom of what it is we are believing is second to none. I've watched as Sparkle listens to someone and finds a way of getting exactly to where that person needs to see from, just by being her wonderful and intuitive self. Her name fits her perfectly, this sparkling ray of light has blessed so many with her humorous musings, which hide profound trusts, all wrapped up in a giggle or three. Sparkle is simply love on legs. Time spent in the company of this gorgeous soul can only bring more joy into anyone's life.
-Mike from Lausanne, Switzerland
The thing that differentiates you (Sally) from others, is that you do not go out to people with an agenda, but with unconditional love. I still cannot describe the state I was in when you visited Switzerland. I felt as if I were in a state of flow and blissful happiness. I want to learn from you how one can live like this every day.